So the Big Update is happening on Friday after work, which is 11-19. So far, the lineup is: Aku Soku Zan(za) 10, Taking Happiness in Hand 4 (I combined a couple of parts in that one, so this part 4 is a new part 4), Black Flower Memorial 3, and Wild Cat 3. That’s a grand total of four new chapters across the board. Do I suck supremely, or what? Well, at least I have until Friday to try and get some more crap done. I’m so close to done with Majime ni Ikite 2, and halfway done with Chi no Kiretsu 6 and Tsuki ni Kawatte, Aku Soku Zan 10.

I was attempting to work on Pride of her Parents a bit ago, but (as usual) I got caught up rereading parts of it and doing minor editing — not that most editing on that story isn’t rather a hopeless business, as it was practically written by a different person. Even the end just reeks of my old self. Not bad, particularly, but good proof of the fact that I’m very, very different from how I was when I wrote it is my reaction to it: the ending actually makes me cry….. makes me cry! It’s not at all unusual for me to cry, but over one of my own stories it is! I’ve seriously got to get going on this one before it turns into someone else’s novel entirely.

Well, I managed to finish the sentence that I’d left hanging in chapter 15… this chapter is so angsty!! Well, the whole thing is rather full of angst, but this chapter is, like, whooooooooooooooo…. all this thwarted love…. I set up the most beautiful scenario based on the fact that Achim still thinks En Shevil is dead. So mean, I am. It’s amusing that I was writing angst long before I even knew what angst was. When I wrote As the Years Go Up in Smoke, I claimed to my readers that it was my first attempt at angst. Well, the truth is that it was my first conscious attempt at angst… I should have reread PohP at that point and realized…