Since my hand-resty days, stories haven’t much felt like being worked on beyond little touch-ups and a couple of paragraphs on Rose Pale. So I’ve mostly been working on getting my art reorganized at the archive, on account of I don’t like the way I’ve had it. I got to about the halfway point last night, so I’ve been working on it again today in the hopes of getting completely done. Of course then lj slows way way way down… *sigh*
Over the last several weeks I have been having troubles with a strange cramp-like pain that sometimes appears when I’m lying in bed. It shoots up the back of my neck and head, as along a vein or specific muscle or something, and is extremely painful. I had thought that perhaps because of my new desk chair I have been sitting differently during the day and something has kinked up that protests as soon as I lie down… but today I find that a strange lump has developed under my skin just at the base of my skull on the right. It doesn’t seem to fit the descriptions of a growing blood clot, so I’m not really sure what it is, and I can’t tell whether it’s the cause or a result of the crampy thing.
Unfortunately, I am dead broke, and I already owe money I don’t have to the doctor’s office for my last visit. So there’s nothing I can do about this for now but hope it’s nothing that will cause brain damage or death or paralysis or something. And that, if it does turn me into a vegetable, I can get all my stories done first.
I had this dream where I was in high school (not exactly an uncommon theme, there) and I could fly (which is another returning favorite). It started out fairly normal… classes, catching the bus, whatevs. But eventually, apparently, the school wanted me captured. I believe they wanted me to do something for them. They hired a mercenary guy, who could also fly, to capture me, and he took me totally by surprise and captured me right away. I got the feeling this guy was actually really nice; after he caught me, he bought me a nice meal at a restaurant that I guess was inside the school, and he was trying to make friendly conversation before he took me to wherever. We had absolutely nothing in common to talk about, though. Star Trek Generations was playing on a TV nearby, and we kinda struck up a conversation about that, but neither of us really had much to say.
So then I decided to escape. I distracted him somehow and flew out the window. Of course he followed me. He was a tall, bulky guy, and couldn’t fly as fast or as high as I could. Of course I had an altitude limit too (I almost always do, in flying dreams), but fortunately it was above him. Then I sort of hovered around nearby, because I felt bad that I was making it so hard for him to do his job… but I didn’t want to be captured again. I never did find out what the school wanted me for, though.
OK, that’s about all I have to say for now.
I don’t know anything about lumps like that, unfortunately. Keep an eye on it and see if it changes. Maybe you’ll be lucky and it’s something that will go away on its own. I’ll cross fingers for you.
Thanks. I’m hoping it will go away on its own, because otherwise I don’t know what I’ll do about it XD My mom was remarkably indifferent when I described it, so I’m unlikely to get doctor money from that source. Aargh, I need a job.
I’m with sharon on that one.. keep an eye on it. I’ve know strange bumpy bits to pop up on knobby joints, but the base of a skull? idk. I *also* hear you on the “well, if I kick it early, I want to leave my stories complete.” It’s weird, but I’ve had that thought every time there’s been a big aftershock here XD Hopefully, it will never get to that point for either of us, or anyone else.
It’s a bit of a Penelope thought, though, since I always have about a million stories in progress; if it actually had any effect to wish, I could prolong my life indefinitely that way XD
Ok! Keep an eye on it. By that, see if it changes shape or you get fevers or if anything extreme changes. I hope is nothing.
As for the dreams, if you dream about going back to school it means that you have not matured as much as you wish to do and your inner conscious is telling you to do so!
As for the flying dream it means you are confident, have high self esteem and find that some things are super easy for you to do! *^_^*
Yeah, I’ve been reaching up to feel it all day. It’s only hurt a little today, and I think it may be a tad smaller. We’ll see…